I had the most life-changing experience this past week. In front of 30 of my Sorority Sisters I bid farewell to my 20 year old self. It’s been a long time coming; she had called the shots for far too long.
In 1991, at the age of 20, I attempted to join a sorority; being a part of this sorority meant more to me than anything. But due to a series of mistakes on the part of the undergraduate leaders I was denied admittance. Though devastated I tried again in Graduate School and was accepted. However, the damage had been done; that traumatic event changed my life.
So for 22 years I haven’t had any meaningful involvement with ANY women’s organizations (including the sorority). Every time I’m asked to join one of these organizations I quickly reply any number of convenient excuses: “I’m too busy”, “I don’t have the money”, “I’m in too many things already”, “It’s not God’s will” (imagine that, blaming God!). I have offered any and every excuse known to avoid becoming involved with any group that has the potential to produce more pain. But this weekend God said, “Enough is Enough!”
I Corinthians 13:11 reads, “When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.”
This weekend I put away childish things. In front of women who had (unintentionally) hurt me I spoke my truth. I didn’t show up as a wounded 20 year old who had something to prove, but as a vibrant 42-year-old who spoke as God instructed. Ironically, the session was life-changing for many of them as well and they too were set free. I love how God does that!
What about you? What little boy/girl lurks on the inside dictating how you live your life? Tell him/her: Enough is Enough! God calls the shots and what He tells you to do, you will do. Where He tells you to go, you will go. You won’t be afraid, you will live!
As for me, the 20 year old who had kept me disconnected has been silenced. She will stick around as she’s part of my story, however she will not make decisions for me and she won’t keep me for the destiny that God has in store for me! God’s calling the shots and I’m moving forward!!!
With God all things are possible,
Your comments are welcome. Tell us about the boy/girl in you that you are now putting to rest.
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